Today I am sad and depressed. I worked so hard and it didn’t even pay off. I prayed every day.  I prayed for God to give me the strength to focus and get through this now I have people asking me if I want to take ADD meds to concentrate. WTF? If you don’t know this, make no mistake, I REFUSE to take drugs of any kind, I’ve never even smoked a cigarette. From everything I’ve learned about this body over the last 25 years, medicine usually has a really strong effect or none at all. I am not taking any chances and if I need to take drugs to pass the bar then let me fail because I refuse to pass that way. I know lots of people are on drugs in law schools especially around finals time. I was ok last night. I had accepted my fate, but today I feel really upset.