Had a little mental breakdown yesterday. Too much going on in the bar studying, no job, awful finances depts. D tried to cheer me up and I spent the rest of the night studying. I’ve got a month to really memorize thos law and I’ll do the best I can. That and reading/writing practice essays and MPTs and doing PMBR questions and that’s it. Can one live off $80 for 3 weeks? I’ll let you know…
Forgot to post this. The other day I spoke to Mr. P about getting into real estate law, he gave me some good advice. Any way, so he paid me a compliment it was really nice. He said that I’m patient in dealing with the other students, I’m calm under pressure which is a good quality to have at closings and that I’m sociable and people like me. I thought that was really nice. God sends me confidence boosters all the time. I greatly appreciate it! I have the oddest calm feeling. I get them every so often around tests, I usually do my best on those exams so I have a feeling I’ll be fine on the bar exam, so says my bar tutor and I believe it! Just need to learn the law well and I should be fine. I just need to memorize my mnemonics since they really help with answering the essays. Lovely weekend of studying ahead of me.
D is so cute. He came up to me this afternoon and asked me when we can go to breakfast again (we went one Sunday about 2 weeks ago). He said he really enjoyed it! Isn’t that sweet!
So the bar exam is about 4 weeks away. Need to start kicking my studying up a notch. I got an iteresting call the other day. One of the Rockland Conuty Attorneys got my resume and even though they are looking for an already admitted attorney, they are looking for someone who has EEOC experience. Since I have EEOC experience my resume stood out. He also contacted me because he graduated from my school so I guess he though it was nice to see another alum’s resume. He told me to call him back when I’m admitted so maybe a job might be available for me. I’d have to move to Rockland County but it’s not that far and is a nice suburb-type area. D probably won’t move with me at least not for awhile since he’s getting a new job here in Brooklyn and the work day starts at 7:30 AM. So I’d live up there and come down here on weekends. Kinda crazy for the first years of marriage but well it’s not new to us, the only difference is that we’ll actually be married this time around.
Interesting day. Bar review went by quickly today. I found ex-best friend on myspace lol. I sent her an interesting message. We’ll see the response…
The interview was not great. The amount they’re willing to pay is so low, I wouldn’t be able to live seriously. I put 45-55K in my cover letter. How bout the interviewer said since I’m not admitted it would be more like 30-35K then go up “a little” after being admitted. Umm even legal aid is paying more than that. A lot more. My student loan payment on the standard 10 year repayment plan would be 1K a month!
I may have a job interview in the near future…will update more later.
EDIT: I have an interview this week. We’ll see what happens. Those of you who do, please pray for me.
Today was not bad at all…well sort of. I woke up around 7 AM after going to bed a 3 AM, D still wasn’t home because he spent the night at that piece of shit Kings County waiting to have his Asthma treated. He called me and really woke me up a little after 9am telling me to get dressed so we could go to a diner. He needed food before finally getting to sleep. So we went to eat and it was cool then he drove me to the LIRR. I got on my train to head back to school to meet the professor for my bar tutoring. He was running a little late with the other guy that he meets before me and we are supposed to meet for 2 hours. We met from about 12:45 to 4 PM! I have homework to do also but I feel really positive about the experience thus far. He’s helping me to write my essays seven better and he says using his system, I can get maybe 2 points higher per essay. On my first two practice essays I got a 6 and a 9. 10 being the highest but I don’t take much stock in the 9 since I looked at the answer for formatting issues but the 6 was all me. Generally 5 is average so I think all 5s on the essays and a decent MBE score would mean a pass bar score. I obviously want to ensure that I can do even better than average since there’s a chance they’ll include some crap I don’t know how to deal with or an aspect of that particular law that I just can’t wrap my head around. I say today was sort of good because I now have to try and do 3 practice essays that need to be handed in tomorrow and the homework from my bar tutor. I started reviewing my notes for the essays yesterday but since I was trying to catch up on everything else it is now an issue because it’s already almost 7 PM.
I love Walgreens! The one near the law school always has good stuff. I’m rewriting key points out by hand so I bought a binder and notebook paper. I got more notebook paper and dividers and it was so cheap. The dividers were on sale for 95 cents. I also finally got my exfoliation gloves and I only paid 2.99. I’m sure at sephora or somewhere else it would be 5 or 6 dollars.
Studying for the bar is making me crazy. I’ve always been a little off, I think most people are, but this shit is on some other level. I am stressed out since you know looking for a job and thinking about the mounting costs of everything, the broke factor and the wtf was I thinking when I decided I wanted to go to law school? My friend who I guess graduated from U of Wisconsin law school isn’t even taking the bar at all, she doesn’t even want to practice and she’s wanted to be a lawyer since like Junior high or maybe even younger than that. She’s probably off in Europe right now. lol. I keep missing London, like seriously missing it, I miss Cafe Nero and the little Muffin Man shop that had the absolute best tea ever. I miss Kensington and I seriously want to go back there but of course I’d probably end up one of the few homeless people in London and there’s no way I’d try to figure out what their equivalent of the bar exam is and actually take it to become a solicitor or whatever. How fucked up can life get? Granted there are people with much worse problems out there but shit, why didn’t I marry one of those asshole middle-aged doctors when I had the chance? People really don’t realize how valuable a marriage of convenience can be.
Studying is going ok. Still not getting as much done but I’m almost finished with one section of the red PMBR book. I have my first meeting with my private tutor on Sunday. I spent all weekend in bar review class. The bar is 7 weeks away. I’ve been applying for jobs and everything when I’m not studying. D may be pursuing a new career in real estate. We’ll see how it goes. If all goes well, we may get out of this apartment I hate sooner rather than later. I got the NY laptop lottery for the bar exam but I didn’t get NJ so I may have to hand write those essays. lol