They finally called him back to take the next round of testing for the LIRR!!!! They were supposed to call him around August 22nd, ok so they are more than a month late. Of course he’s going on vacation to Florida for 12 days starting on Monday. You have no idea how pissed I am that he will be basking on the Miami sun, while I’m here, doing school work. But now he has to study while he’s there too. I hope he does well. I have been praying for them to call him back and now they have. I hope this is the last test before he actually starts training! Externship is going ok for the day but I don’t feel so well. I can’t wait to go home. I didn’t even show up to my externship or go to school yesterday. I didn’t leave the house. I did get to see my fiance’s mother. We had a nice chat and watched some TV. She’s so funny. I am glad we get along because there are so many people in my own family that I do not get along with. Did the treadmill again last night. Being a n overachiever is so funny sometimes because you just keep pushing yourself. I did 40 minutes, around 3-4MPH and 238 calories. I am becoming addicted. I am going to ride this wave because eventaully I will probably get lazy again. did I mention that fiance’s mom likes the treadmill, she says she’s going to use it on the days she comes to visit. She bought us some groceries the other day, it was so sweet to come home and see we actually had eggs. LOL they were finished last week and we haven’t been to the supermarket yet.
Did the treadmill again tonight. I did 1.42 miles and 35 minutes. I think I burned like 60-something in fat and I think 148 calories? Not too bad, I was at 3 mph running and walking at about 2-2.5 mph. I feel pretty good. Going to hit the showers.
So I am now conviced that I have a thyroid problem. I checked WebMD and I have a lot of the symptoms. I am going to get it checked out on October 8th but if that is my problem, I’ll be stuck on thyroid meds for the rest of my life! I suck at talking medicine. When I know I need to and for a short duration, I’m fine but for the rest of my life…Not sure if I want to have a thyroid problem or not. If I have one, then good I have an explanation of what’s going on with my body. If I don’t have that problem, I have to keep searching as to why I feel the way I do, why I can’t lose any weight and actually gain weight when I know I’m not eating much at all. I am anxious to find out the answer to this question.
ETA: The treadmill has arrived. Not sure if we have to put it together though. I hope not. I can’t wait to use it.
ETA2: yeah I am stressed but it’s driving me nuts that I keep gaining weight, yet I wear the same size 6 even fit into a size 4 dress?!!!!!???? Very confused. Yay my wonderful fiance put up the treadmill tonight. I did 30 minutes, which was at about 2.3 miles/hour and 1.06 miles! I feel good, I only burned like 150 calories. LOL but I did burn like 70-something in fat?! I haven’t read the booklet yet. I also have never been on a treadmill ever before this.
Is fear a good thing? I am wondering this because I am starting to become afraid of getting married, not that I don’t want to get married but because I don’t want to get divorced and I want to be happy in my marriage. I just don’t know why I feel this way. I love him, I feel like I’ve loved him forever but he does get on my nerves. LOL. Why, he’s a different person and that’s it. We argue a lot we go through cycles. Every so often we go through months without fighting but then something starts it off. Why do I love him? He’s my best friend. When anything good or bad happens, he’s the first person I want to call. He supports me; I sometimes think my education means more to him that it does me (well not really but it’s almost even). We have fun together, a lot of fun even though we don’t see each other much because of his work schedule and my school schedule. He makes me laugh more than anyone else. He does little nice things for me, not necessarily what one would consider conventionally romantic things, but nice things that make me smile. He gives me compliments all the time. He always tells me I’m beautiful and sexy. We mostly want the same things out of life including a house, kids, investments, travel and to be happy. We do have problems compromising which in some ways doesn’t bother me too much because we’re both strong personalities and so neither one of us cowers down to the other. So overall I know I love him, and I know it will work if we keep working at our relationship. You know I feel the safest when I’m lying in his arms. So I guess fear isn’t too bad, it keeps you aware of the situation. Honestly, I usually refuse to fail, if it’s inevitable I’ll fight the good fight till the end, I will carry this over into my marriage. We are going through a slump right now because our schedules are so different. Before I started back with school this semester we would watch TV for 2 hours every day. Sometimes we’d do something else, but we generally had a deal to spend that much time together. It’s not much time but I enjoyed it. Now he’s going to be traveling a lot without me, because he can. He has the vacation time and I don’t oh well. At least we have the Bahamas and maybe we’ll also have Sicily next fall or Trinidad after I take the bar. Anyone have any advice?
Week 1 of placement went well. I drafted a sight letter, whatever that is. I am so tired and we were supposed to go to the movies later but I am tired and it looks like rain. I am worn out right now and I was taking a nap and my mother calls about her wedding again. At least once a week I get updates. I care but geez I have other things I’m thinking/worrying about. I ordered an mpre book, Supreme Bar Riview MPRE Review. I need the extra sample questions. It has good reviews.Nothing much else, no new wedding planning.
So I start my placement for my clinic tomorrow and did I mention I am very nervous. I always get nervous and apprehensive and then once I’m in it, I love it. I love working much more than when I’m in school. I heard I’ll be doing a lot of commercial transactions at work. So I’ll be working Thursday afternoons and all day on Friday. I’m also hoping that next semester I can work in surrogates court. See last year I was one of 6 chosen to intern with the Manhattan Surrogates Court but the corresponding class had a pre-req I hadn’t taken. So I have to re-apply but that looks good on your resume, know what I mean? So a judge called me today. I sent out my resume and writing sample to her and another judge on Monday and she called because she’s not getting any grad clerks but since I knew someone who worked for her before, she decided to call me personally. She said if she does have any positions allotted to her, she’s give me a call back. Grrr I’ve been on 0 interviews and I refuse to sit at home till I find out I passed the bar. I also refuse to postpone this wedding any longer. I mean should I wait until our 10th anniversary! LOL I’d only have to wait another year. Nope, we’re getting married in 2007 even if we have to take my shoes and that off white dress I posted and get married in Vegas.
Yay! I’m so happy right now. I wanted these earrings for Christmas, so Damian said he’d pay the majority of the cost. So I found a great deal. I ordered them from the same place that my diamond from my engagement ring came from. So I get a voice mail yesterday, that the diamonds had been sold that same day I ordered the earrings. (they are custom made) so anyway, I was pissed and I emailed the guy saying, I am upset, I really wanted those earrings and the prices of the ones they send were hundreds higher than the ones I wanted before, I was only prepared to spend 1K. LOL So he emailed me today and the sales director said I could get them for the 1K total. The white gold setting alone was $100 so I’m getting each diamond for about 450 when one really costs $600 and the other was over $550. I’m so happy. I can’t wait to get them. The total carat weight is almost 3/4 carat. They should be here by Tuesday! Yes I know Christmas is far away but we do that to each other sometimes.
ETA: totally forgot that I got a dress to wear to my mom’s wedding. I went back to Loehmann’s to get a dress to wear to my friend’s wedding in November and I saw the dress. It looks great but I need to have it taken in a bit.
I got this white dress too. I have no idea where I’m going ot wear it, maybe when we take engagement pictures.
My wedding shoes came today. I love them.
OK going to bed. I am going to San Antonio to my friend’s wedding in November. I am excited. I bought my ticket and hotel stay today! I signed up to be a Pieper Rep today. A lot of people practicing in the field have said that Pieper is the better bar course. Some of them took Pieper after they failed the bar once and then did well with Pieper. I have to sign up 8 students to get the free bar course though. Do you know how expensive it is? Right now I am getting it for $2595 before the discount. With the discounts and what I already paid to Barbri, I think it’s about $2000. I need to get 8 people though. I also am going to have to sit at the table for 2 hours every wednesday. I have two hours free between classes so it works perfectly. Cross your fingers that I get 8 people or if you know anyone at my school looking to sign up, send them my way!
LOL People. I really have no desire to be a stripper! There’s a story that goes along with that comment. My fiance’s friend is a personal trainer and I was explaing how I’m not getting as many results as I would like in the 2 months I’e been working out. I was pointing out though, that my saddlebags are gone/going and now I can wear certain skirts that made them look so obvious that I left the skirts in the closet for over a year. So I was explaing how before, when I’d contract my butt, the saddlebags would disappear, so now I know they are much better because I hardly see a difference when I contract my ass. LOL So any way, his response was “have you ever considered becoming an exotic dancer?” He said that supposedly not that many people can contract their asses? Is that true? I’ve always been able to do that. Oh and yes I can make it clap. LOL I can also move my pecs like a guy and now they move on their own sometimes since I’ve been working out more. So there’s the story. Also once a guy actually gave me a flyer, I thought it was for a party but when I read closely it was for “adult entertainment and/or stripping” Yuck!
Good News though! In one of my classes we have these group quizzes. Every week a new group is selected and has to answer questions related to buisness and tech developments. So this week my group was called, keep in mind I almost didn’t go to class after my crappy MPRE score news. So my group is called, I know like none of these people, but luckily they are all smart. We got all 10 questions right. I only knew the answer to 1 question but a few folks were like that too. This one girl got like 80% of the answers right. The 10 questions correlate to 10 points added to your raw class grade (pre-curve) so it’s really good that we got all 10 points. That could mean the difference between a B and a C even maybe a B+ with the curve.
So I failed the MPRE. I’m pissed but what can I do. Signed up to take it again in November, 3 days after my 24th birthday. Yuck!
I’m starting my MBE bar review in October. It’s only 3 sundays and I have modified schedules or no class the mondays after so it’ll work out.
Someone please give me a job! Ok I know i’m not top 10% of the class on all that and from my usual posts it may be had to deceifer that I actually am intelligent but I really am. I feel so dejected. I want to have a job by graduation. I decided that I am going t take the NY/NJ bar at the same time. The NJ bar is supposedly easier and it only tests on the MBE subjects so if I’m prepared for the MBE I should be fine for the 7 essays in NJ, plus it makes sense to take it at the same time because I’ll only take the MBE once vs. taking the NJ bar at a later time. So now I’ll have 3 days of bar exam hell come July. So yeah, if anyone wants to offer me a job as a lawyer come August, let me know. My only other viable options are stay at home mom (not ready for that shit), stripper (lol not my style though I’ve been told I’d be good at it) or bum!